-TO CONTINUE OR NOT TO?-

There's still a thing in my mind now..

A serious matter regarding my future..

Nowadays, I'm getting lazier and lazier to study..

I always said I'm not interested in this field..

But is it true or it is just an excuse for me to be lazy?

I really don't have the answer now..

I'm confuse..

In previous post, I said I've decided not to continue in this field..

And now I'm not so sure already..

Still lost and blur of not knowing what to do..

Hope I'll be hardworking enough to go through final year..

I don't want to let my parents down..

And I don't want to let my lao gong down too..

They are standing behind my back all this while..

Helping me whenever I'm falling and giving up..

Giving me support now and then..

JENNA ~~~ please do your best from now on !!!

It's not too late.. It's never too late..

Gambate Jenna Ong !!!

-Aerobics Day-

I'm going to have my hari Ko-k in another 2 or 3 weeks i think..

damn nervous about it..

although everyone oso have to dance during hari ko-k..

but still nervous la..

so,now every monday we go to the class just to practice on our performance..

and my group is using this song..

check it out..

-DUSTY BLOG-

i have this dusty blog in my favourite homepage list..

feel very paiseh.. cos damn long never update it..

kinda busy nowadays..

although busy but i manage to get myself a few holiday with my coursemates and k ying gang..

really happy although i'm in my final year..

i still get all the leisure and fun that a student should have..

but nowadays.. 1 kind of feeling appear in my heart..

tat's 1 more year.. i need to go out and work for real this time..

not internship.. no more university life..

i can feel the pressure now.. but actually i feel kinda eager to be exposed to the working life..

bcos.. i'm short of money now..

with work... i can get the money i want.. i can buy whatever i want..

i can do whatever i want...

now what can i do is.. ENJOY my life to the fullest..

BACK TO WHERE I BELONG

I'm back to where I belong and what I'm suppose to be..

Back to my worst nightmare..

Back to the place I don't like..

But even my lao gong also don't understand what is happening to me..

Even myself know.. I have no other solution..

But just to face it..

So many advice given..

So many experience shared..

So many encouragement given..

But still I don't want to face all these things..

I'm scare of the outcome..

I'm lost..

Totally lost this time..

I don't want to come back to reality..

I want to stay in fairy tales..

I found it more comfortable there..

Cos everything ends happily ever after..

Meanwhile, I just finish my midterm break..

This is what I've been on Saturday..

Half day trip to...

the road taken to the place...

the thing that keep me awake ~~

everyone !!!

nice.. vege pao

nice "wu kok"

at pantai remis..

nice background..

like this feeling..

love this photo so much..

ah pek tengah "fan".. wahahahaha

jumping pose..

the tower in Kuala Selangor

me n my lao gong..

on the way up to the hill..

hahaha..

time for sepak takraw..

like this photo.. so nice..

i hate them !!!

artistic..

the 4 guys..

For the rest of the photos..

Please do check out in facebook..

I'm too tired to upload it here.. hahahaha..

TQ!!!

POSTPONE

Nowadays, in my head.. that's smtg really popular..

a very damn popular word that i'll always use..

not only a word la.. there's a few words..

introducing the first word.. "LATER"

the second word.. "LAZY"

the third word.. "TIRED"

all these 3 words are always in my dictionary..

always.. hahahaha..

so, until now there's so many things i haven't do due to the popularity of these 3 words..

so,there's a long list of what i need to do during and after this sem break..

1) study for french test (25 aug 09)

2) try to do QC's tutorials for the class (25 aug 09)

3) study for life insurance test (26 aug 09)

4) settle time series assignment (due 27 aug 09)

5) study for time series test (3 sept 09)

6) study for risk theory test including settle the tutorials before test(8 sept 09)

wah !!! 6 things in 3 weeks.. how to settle?

i think i need to get out from the crowd and become unpopular for a while..

cos there's so much to do and so little time..

out-dated for a while shouldn't be a problem... =p

but meanwhile, tomorrow i need to rest myself for a while..

cos time to go for a half day trip..

hope i can enjoy to the fullest..

and then come back to the reality.. yeah !!!

RANDOM POST

Something to post randomly..

MY FEELINGS again..

really feel very lazy nowadays..

withdraw from exam FM.. suppose to feel relieve

but i feel a bit guilty..

dunno what really happen..

but i feel guilty to my parents and family..

all of them think i'm studying real hard for my future..

as a matter of fact..

my laziness has covers my whole body and now it covers my life..

how can i remove it from my body first?

can anyone teach me?

I'm really disappointed with myself..

in my head now is "when i'm graduating?"

i wanna earn money and go shopping n travel everyday without worries..

sounds easy huh? but i know it will not happen so soon..

cos i need to work real hard to achieve tat dream..

suddenly feel like i'm in an empty and deep hole..

i can't come out..

i need help.. i need to study hard..

i need to achieve my dream..

-MY BABY-

bought myself a new baby yesterday..

i hope to get the new baby half a year ago..

but i just bought it yesterday..

thanks to my lao gong..

i'm really really happy to get this baby..

my baby..

pinky baby..

lumix FS62

SEMESTER BREAK

Finally, time for me to take my break..

Tired after so many weeks of test, assignments, tension, pressure..

Now it's my time to rest (for a few days..)

Break don't know it's good or bad also.. hahaha..

cos after the break more n more things are coming up

all the subjects midterm are coming lo.. wat else?

but i still take my take to rest and relax in coming week..

tonite 1st stop, i'll be going to genting..

although at 1st, dun really feel like going.. but then when decided to go..

i'll enjoy to the fullest.. yeah !!!

Happy holiday everyone !!!

-GIVE UP-

At last, I GIVE UP !!!

I've withdraw from Exam FM this 14th August 2009..

Cos I'm too scare to face the truth as I'm not ready for the exam yet.

Thought dun wanna waste money cos I'll fail the paper..

mana tau refund oso waste money..

I've paid USD 114 for the paper den refund only can get back USD14..

but refund oso la.. cos dun wanna make myself disappointed anymore..

Now suddenly feel like no longer interested in this field..

I feel like I'm more interested in learning something related to software in statistics..

such as SAS, R, Java, Matlab and etc...

and interpret and presenting it statistically to all the bosses that don't understand anything related to statistics or software.. wahahahahha.. can tipu them ma..

therefore, i think i might delay my progress in taking all the actuarial papers cos i oso got no heart to study for it.. so better waste USD100 than USD114 lo..

hehehe.. but mana tau.. i received an e-mail yesterday saying that I've been approve to cancel the exam and get to refund USD68.. meaning i only rugi USD46 (RM160 like that la)

so,meaning I've proof myself right by withdrawing from the exam lo..

But i still need to face with lots of midterm n quizzes..

hopefully i can manage to graduate next year la... hahahaha

last few days attend so many ppl convo.. make myself wanna graduate early..

regret taking actuarial science in the 1st place.. cos it's 4 years.. waste of time.. hahahaha

rather take statistics.. cos it's only short n compact 3 years..

but can't do anything now.. faster faster end tis 1 more year den can work lu...

ah soon, sing yeh n simon (hock hilang dy)

me n sing yeh..

sing yeh n my lao gong..

-PEK CEK TIME-

issit my PMS time?

no la.. of course.. just a period for all my exams, quiz and assignment..

i found it really pek cek.. with my FM coming nearer and nearer and next week with 2 quiz and 1 assignment to hand in.. and i'm still blogging now..

this few days, i got a bit unhappy with something happen..

but then my lao gong tried to cheer me up and brought me to watch transformers 2..

thanks lao gong.. without u.. i think i got no mood to do anything dy..

i really found out that there's no such thing as true fren..

when i start treating someone as my true fren.. a lot of things will happen..

i just wanna stay happy and with no worries with no politics..

is that so hard?

but i can honestly tell everyone.. it's damn damn hard !!!!

i dun understand y malaysian are that kia-su !!!

i'm just trying to go on with my life and be happy with it..

that's all.. y everyone are trying to mess up my life?

some people like to see you unhappy den they'll be happy..

really dun understand this kind of people..

c'mon !!! go on with ur life..

dun make other people's life unhappy as yours please !!!