guess wat's important in our life?

nowadays,a lot of things happen in my life
sometimes it's really down not to have anyone beside me
but i'm really glad i have my lao gong by my side..
he's always a good lao gong
no matter how down am i..
he'll always be here for me..
thanks a lot lao gong..
den i hav all my family
there are always here to support me..
den my frens..
k ying frens, coursemates and 677 family..
really thanks cos always go out and enjoy with me all the time..
thanks everyone..
everyone is always important in my life..
no matter who u are..
without anyone of u..
there's no jenna..
thanks lao gong..
thanks mom and dad..
thanks to my sisters and brother..
thanks k ying..
thanks 677
thanks coursemates..
thanks everyone !!!

...finish at last !!! ...

at last,finish all my midterm dy..
i feel really happy.. but then i still feel quite sad deep inside..
cos i really miss my home.. i wan a home to go to when i'm down when i'm lonely when i need a place to rest with all my loved one there..
but i dun have a home.. except the one in gopeng.. but that's so far away..
i miss my home.. i miss my home sweet home..
but den really lucky i have my lao gong that can lend me a place to sleep..
den there's 677 also.. there's is the only place i feel warm now.. haih ~~~~~~
feel so hard to cover all my sadness in my heart..
so,i've jotted down here.. feel alot more better..
but i really hope i won't feel so down anymore..
i just wanna be more optimistic and be neutral !!!!
i really wanna do that... =)

tired.. always tired..

suddenly 1 of my course mate ask me a question yesterday...
"do u think u should continue in actuarial field?"
...............................
weird huh? suddenly got asked by this kind of question..
sounds weird.. but it suddenly make me stunt..
then he continue...
"do u wanna continue in finance field?"
eh... finance? what they do?
Is it like what I'm studying now..
I'm not sure.. i dunno what it really is.. oh god, you got to really help me..
it's really suffering when thinking about all this questions
i tend to skip all the problems i have in my mind and heart..
and tends to live happily without thinking about it..
but yesterday.. really shock me.. tat my course mate ask me a serious question
then i was like "oh ya hor, why i never think about this question before?"
but is it too late now? cos I'm already in 3rd year in my course.
actually it's a pressure course.. every actuary student tends to spend their life doing the same routine.. which i found it's boring..
go class..study...eat..shower...sleep..study...exam...assignments...tutorials...study...
oh no..it must be crazy.. yes.. that's what an actuary student suppose to be..
but me.. play..sleep.. eat..shower.. sleep.. eat.. play >>>>> study when there's exam or test..
so realistic.. ya that's me.. study for my result.. hahahahaa..
what to do? that's me.. but seriously.. i think that i won't like to work in an office with walls and papers all over me.. it's really suffering.. i like to enjoy my life every second of my life without pressure.. that's y i plan so many things to laze around guys !!! sorry ya..
but i think now is the time to face all the reality.. no more wonderland,girl !!!
think about my future.. think about my life.. think about everything please !!!!