getting mature and getting closer

Recently found out that my feelings and thinking are totally different than before..

My thinking differ from day to day..

I'm getting hot and heavy with my studies..

Maybe I'm getting in full bloom as days past..

Nevertheless, I'm getting closer and closer to all my course mates..

Since last semester, we've been going out like nobody's business..

Going out each and every single weekdays after our lectures..

Our kinship has become thick as thieves..

Really glad knowing each and everyone of you.. =)

-NEW YEAR IS HERE-

December is my favorite month of the year..

I love December very much.. Cos it's the month of my birthday and also the month to end everything of the year and start with another new year the following month..

This December is the longest December I've ever had..

Mostly do nothing at home and maybe do some chores..

Playing facebook games, playing playfirst games, watching dramas, go for movies, knitting a scarf..

Some sort like that..

But at the same time, my k ying buddies celebrated my birthday and also my lao gong..

thanks for all the gifts.. like it very much =)

Then, I would like to thank my family..

Thanks mom for the perfect gift..

Thanks to my sisters for the sponsor of the perfect purse..

Thanks to my brother for the shabu shabu..

Thanks to everyone that text me on my cellphone..

Thanks to everyone that leave a note on the wall of my facebook..

Appreciate it..

My cake.. thanks to mr foo wei jean..

and of course thanks to all the k ying buddies

a nice dinner with my favorite dishes.. and my favorite crab !!!

thanks to my lao gong for this pizza...

damn.. he's handsome !!!

thanks to ivan for this meal..

the scarf that I knit.. But the measurement seems weird..

before knitting..

-me-

thanks guys.. appreciate it so much =)

So, now year 2009 is going to end real soon..

It's time to start a new life with new beginning..

2010 is the year of tiger.. Meaning it's our year for those born in 1986 (after CNY)

It's already 2 cycles in the lunar calendar that we are born to this world..

1 cycle = 12 years

2 cycles = 2*12 years = 24 years

Damn !!! old !!! shit !!!

But no matter how.. Have to accept it..

Note : FYI, my 24 years is in December 2010.. I just turn 23 on 14 December 2009..

Don't misunderstand.. I'm a December baby ~~!!!

Anyway, time to say goodbye 2009 and welcome to the world of 2010..

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone ~~~!!!

-UPDATE AFTER A LONG LONG TIME-

Currently I'm having my holiday.. this is the last holiday for 4 years of uni life..

I feel a bit uneasy with all these feelings..

Kinda leaving all my study life.. and really start the journey of a working young adult..

Nervous, Scare, Worry ????

a bit of those feelings.. But there's half year more for me to enjoy my study life..

I must really enjoy to the fullest..

So, what did I do this holiday so far?

November

5th Anniversary with my lao gong..

Chili's Midvalley..

I really had a good time that day.. thanks for everything lao gong =)

Next, celebrate jet's birthday

in MED Bkt Tinggi..

Had a great time there too.. Laughing whole nite..

Long time never gather like tat dy..

Really enjoy myself.. Happy birthday siu keong !!!!

December

Time for work.. enough with all the entertainment..

Time to earn some money..

Working in KLCC Convention Center..

High School Musical Summer Celebration.. as usher and ticket checker..

Very flexible job.. Can lepak whole day..

Really enjoy tis job..

Outside the hall.. lepak...

So, there are still 3 weeks of my holiday..

My birthday is coming soon.. getting older =.="'

Christmas is coming soon..

New Year is coming soon..

2010 is coming !!!!!

what's my list to accomplish for 2010???

I don't want to make any wish list for next year like I normally do..

I just want to live my life as happy as possible in year 2010..

without worries and tension that I used to have before this..

So, just want to be who I am and be as happy as I can..

I hope everyone can be happy too..

take care everyone and happy holiday.. =)

-IS BACK-

Oh my god.. it's back.. again..

Allow me to explain in details..

Next week monday and tuesday is my last 2 papers for this semester final..

Both of this subject I haven't revise them since the second test..

So, until now.. My progress is still null..

And when I really wanted to start revising 1 of the subject..

It's back !!!

I'm afraid this time it will screwed up my last 2 papers..

I'm afraid it will make my life miserable..

I'm afraid everything will be topsy-turvy..

I'm afraid I won't get good result this time..

I keep my fingers crossed.. Have faith that it will disappear tomorrow..

I'm knocking on wood that it will drop out of sight tomorrow..

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My do-nothingness, my inertia, my slothfulness, my weariness..

**Crossed my fingers**

for it to desert me tomorrow and the remaining days of the week.. =)

-SPREAD YOUR WINGS AND FLY-

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands and watch you rise

Spread you wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly (butterfly)

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly
Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun (fly to the sun)
If you should return to me (I will know you're mine)
We truly were meant to be (spread your wings and fly)
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly (my butterfly)

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be (you and I)
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly

BUTTERFLY...

This song is so nice..

Hope all of you can listen at the same time sing together with mariah carey.. =)

-MA VILLE-

Je m'appelle Jenna. J'habite dans une jolie maison a Klang. C'est dans l'ouest de Selangor. Selangor se trouve dans le centre de la Malaisie. C'est une ville pres de Shah Alam et 30 minutes de l'Universite Malaya. C'est une ville agreable. C'est trop de monde et beaucoup de bruit. Il y a des jolies maisons et jolis appartement. J'aime bien la ville. Il y a des restaurants. Je vais souvent au restaurant. Il y a trois cinema. Je vais cinema deux fois par mois. Il y a une piscine. Je vais a la piscine de temps en temps. Il y a beaucoup de choses pour les enfants. Il y a des parcs et des aires de jeux pour les enfants. J'aime beaucoup habiter ici.

-MA FAMILLE-

Je m'appelle Jenna. Mon nom de famille c'est Ong. J'ai 22 ans. J'habite a Petaling Jaya. Je suis etudiante en science de l'Universite Malaya. Je viens de Malaysia. Je suis nee a Klang.

Mon pere est retraite et ma mere est mere au foyer. Ils s'appellent Liat et Sharon. Ils ont 58 ans et 57 ans. Mon pere est ne a Penang et ma mere est nee a Klang. Ils habitent a Perak.

J'ai deux soeurs et un frere. Ils s'appellent Lena, Anna et Ivan. Ils ont 36 ans, 34 ans et 27 ans. Ma soeur, Lena est mariee. Mon beau frere s'appelle Donald. L'enfant de Lena et Donald s'appelle Erin. Elle a 7 ans. Ma soeur, Anna est mariee aussi. Mon beau frere s'appelle Wong. Les enfants de Anna et Wong s'appellent Ashley et Elsa. Ils ont 4 ans et 2 ans. Mon frere, Ivan est celibataire. Il habite a Kuala Lumpur.

-SUDDEN-

Suddenly, I browse through my blog..

And I saw Burger's photo..

Until now I still can't accept that she's gone..

I really miss her..

I really regret for not going back often to see her and play with her..

I don't have the chance to say goodbye to her..

I'm very sad..

I really miss you, Burger..

-NEW BEGINNING-

Today suddenly got mood to re-create and design my blog..

Although tomorrow got french exam..

But still doing all these.. But after creating this blog..

I'm damn happy.. It makes me really satisfied with my creativity..

(Not very creative also.. =p)

I was listening to a song called Butterfly by Mariah Carey..

Den suddenly this Butterflies pop up in my mind..

So, it's butterflies in my mind..

The popular phrase for butterflies is "butterflies in my stomach"

At 1st thought, i want to put butterflies in my stomach..

But something is not right there..

If I put butterflies in my stomach.. Makes me and everyone that is reading this blog nervous..

Therefore, I've decided to use "Butterflies in my mind"

And in french this is known as "Des papillons dans mon esprit"

(just to revise before tomorrow's exam)

Anyway, all the best in your finals for those that are taking finals..

Those other good samaritans, hope you have a nice day =)

-FRIENDS-

I have a lot of friends.. a lot a lot..

It's uncountable..

Close friends I have a lot too.. a lot a lot..

True friends.. I think I have a lot.. I think la..

Cos I'm not sure whether I'm true friends are true or not..

From last time till now, I have a lot of types of friends..

Some are quiet..

Some are talkative..

Some are kind..

Some are helpful..

Some are funny..

Some are good..

Some are bad.. bad in the sense that they did something that made me not happy..

But just a small portion of them..

Sometimes I really don't understand why all of these suddenly happen..

Some of my friends betrayed me..

Some of my friends lied to me..

Some of my friends spread rumours about me..

Some of my friends have 2 faces..

Some of my friends spread my secrets..

Some misunderstand happens, then I feel very sad about it..

Then more misunderstand continues to happen..

I wanted and trying to treat each and everyone my true friends..

But sometimes I really can't do that..

Cos they have done something that make my heart scattered..

I don't want to lose a friend..

A lot of my other friends asked me to forget about it and don't bother..

I've tried.. But I can't..

Sometimes, things that had already happened.. happens..

I can't turn back time..

I just wanna live my life as happy as I want it to be without all this worries..

I want everyone to be my friends..

My TRUE friends..

It's all about trust and never betrayed any of your friends..

I know everyone is not the same..

I tried to accept everyone as my friends..

As who they are.. Not faking it..

I need a true friend..

You need a true friend too..

So, before you treat someone that way..

Or do something to the person..

Please think deeply.. Is he/she your friend... your true best friend..

If he/she is.. why not you don't betrayed or make him/her sad..

All I want are true friends..

And I will be your true friend as well if you are really my true friend..