-PEK CEK TIME-

issit my PMS time?

no la.. of course.. just a period for all my exams, quiz and assignment..

i found it really pek cek.. with my FM coming nearer and nearer and next week with 2 quiz and 1 assignment to hand in.. and i'm still blogging now..

this few days, i got a bit unhappy with something happen..

but then my lao gong tried to cheer me up and brought me to watch transformers 2..

thanks lao gong.. without u.. i think i got no mood to do anything dy..

i really found out that there's no such thing as true fren..

when i start treating someone as my true fren.. a lot of things will happen..

i just wanna stay happy and with no worries with no politics..

is that so hard?

but i can honestly tell everyone.. it's damn damn hard !!!!

i dun understand y malaysian are that kia-su !!!

i'm just trying to go on with my life and be happy with it..

that's all.. y everyone are trying to mess up my life?

some people like to see you unhappy den they'll be happy..

really dun understand this kind of people..

c'mon !!! go on with ur life..

dun make other people's life unhappy as yours please !!!

HAPPY WITH MY LIFE

I'm totally happy with my life now.

Although I don't get to see my lao gong everyday and actually we argue most of the time we met.

Maybe it sounds normal to some people because we are 4 years and 8 months together already.

Last month, we met everyday for a month and stay together too under one roof.

That one month, we actually argue most of the time but I admit I do hate him a lot sometimes.

But I still love him no matter how.

Sometimes, I've been started to think, we have not get married and we already have so much argument between us over a small tiny matter.

Will we every survive until the day we get married? This question begin to repeat in my mind for a month long. But until last week I still don't know the answer yet.

But now, I can confidently tell everyone that, " We will definitely survive until the day we get married. " This is sure because both of us are clear that we love each other very much and we like being in each other life.

As a girl, I'm the one that always start the argument. Over tiny tiny things.

For example, I'm a easily "get-jealous" person.

So, whoever that goes near or even talk to my lao gong, I'll get angry at my lao gong although he's not the one starting the conversation.

It's just a simple conversation and I'm there but just don't know why I'll get angry.

Silly me !!! But no worries, now anyone and everyone can talk to my lao gong.

I Promise not to get angry at him !!! hahahaha.. Maybe cause I've grow up.

Everything I look at the past is totally different from how I look at it now.

I'm sure with what we have been through this few years, our feelings to each other is getting stronger day by day.

I'm sure I'm ready for my big day to accept this guy as my other half and to accompany through my life.

This semester is totally a busy semester for me. Because I'll be taking my Financial Mathematics Exam (Exam FM) on the 14th of August 2009. And I'm not fully prepare for it but I'll be fully prepared for this war as I don't want to fail anymore. At the same time, in university, I'm taking french, aerobics and 4 more major subjects which I find it quite thought cause my basic is not that strong. This semester is definitely tough for me and I don't want to be failure anymore.

I'll be hardworking starting from now.

Everything is like so clear now.

Previously I'm living under the sea and I can feel all the pressure that's in the water.

But now I found my way out and I can see the world is so wonderful and I can breathe without all the pressure.

I'm so happy.

So calm ~~~

-NEW SEMESTER-

Ladies and gentlemen, I'm starting my new semester in 8 hours and 10 minutes from now..

Am i nervous? No way man !!! not 1st year also. but final year already. old already. haha

but let me tell u what i did before my new semester starts la.

I come back to 677 just now at about 10 something.

den i become so down n disappointed..

firstly, i come n den i c at the front door.. there's a lot of papers lying down on the floor..

do i pick it up? it's already 10pm at night. do u think I'll pick it up?

secondly, i come inside.. i c a lot of shoes scattered at the floor..

SHIT !!! there's a shoe rack for them.. y can't they just put nicely at the appropriate place..

dun understand why ????

thirdly, go inside room.. there is ants near my wardrobe..

shit !!! why ???

i asked my roommate.. she said cos there's a dragonfly in the waste paper basket.. n she can do experiment on the ants repellent..

huh? y suddenly got a dead dragonfly in there? y she didn't just pack the plastic bag n throw it outside?? y?? i really got blur??

den she told me tat dragonfly died on my bed yesterday n she throw it in the waste paper basket and she said she knew there'll be ants later on..

but y she didn't just pack it up n throw it away????

still dun understand..

so, end up.. i throw it away lo..

wat a tiring night.. i'm just trying to rest and stay happily in this house..

but why there are so many problems??

but i can say that nowadays i'm very hot tempered..

i dunno why.. but i do get angry easily and i get angry at certain people easily..

all i need to do is just control my temper and dun care about so many things..

i'll try to forget about what everyone has done in the past and my new semester will be a new start for me !!!

each n everyone has their own personality and i'll try to accept each n everyone of them !!!

and i need to know the word TOLERATE !!!

i must know that word !!!!

-MY FEELINGS-

Nowadays dunno what happen to me.. maybe i really grow up dy..

after my internship den haven't start new sem yet.. too free at home..

i think about so many things.. especially those past things la..

i think about what have i done last time..

i think about the things i've done issit rite or wrong..

i think about am i too emotional to do smtg..

i think about my own attitude..

i think about a lot of things..

i really dunno in the past..

i'm childish or i'm selfish..

but i think now i got the answers dy..

in the past, i'm a very bad bad girl..

i always think about myself first..

never really think about others feelings..

no matter when..

i've hurt so many ppl by talking..

hopefully they'll forgive me..

but from today onwards..

i never wanna think about the past anymore..

i'll be good to everyone..

and i'm sure i'll do it..

never ever think about myself again..

never be selfish..

never judge a book by it's cover..

n never be emotional again...

sorry to those ppl that i've hurt in the past..

i'll change..

I WILL !!!

SORRY ~~

I'm gonna miss you, ISM Insurance Services Malaysia Berhad

I've completed my internship for 4 months in a place known as ISM Insurance Services Malaysia Berhad in Jalan Sultan Sulaiman.

It's been an enjoyable 4 months.. I started my 4 months intern on 2nd march 2009..

i was alone and the rest of my course mates have found themselves in other insurance company or bank whereas for me.. I've choose to complete my internship in this company.. and until now i never regret to work there.. it's been an memorable 4 months for me..

i really appreciate everything and everyone there..

I've been learning a lot of things there.. from SAS Enterprise Guide to a normal excel..

but I enjoy every second in the company with all the friendly colleagues and the friendly environment.. I really wanna take this opportunity to thank everyone there.. It's been my pleasure getting to know each and everyone of them..

my 2 bosses..

from left : Danny, BICC senior manager , Carl, CEO of ISM

Choo Ing, HR Manager..

my "mom" haha.. shirley

front : liza, mazlen, me and shymala

back : Mr Lim

the pretty ladies.. hahaha

choo ing, shaminee and rachel..

for my farewell.. thanks everyone..

yong, shaminee, me and cheng khang

my BFF , Siti

Me with Voon..

Shirley, me with kak piah...

a gift from ISM.. i like it so much.. thanks !!!

THANK YOU ISM !!!

I'm gonna miss you !!!