HAPPY WITH MY LIFE

I'm totally happy with my life now.

Although I don't get to see my lao gong everyday and actually we argue most of the time we met.

Maybe it sounds normal to some people because we are 4 years and 8 months together already.

Last month, we met everyday for a month and stay together too under one roof.

That one month, we actually argue most of the time but I admit I do hate him a lot sometimes.

But I still love him no matter how.

Sometimes, I've been started to think, we have not get married and we already have so much argument between us over a small tiny matter.

Will we every survive until the day we get married? This question begin to repeat in my mind for a month long. But until last week I still don't know the answer yet.

But now, I can confidently tell everyone that, " We will definitely survive until the day we get married. " This is sure because both of us are clear that we love each other very much and we like being in each other life.

As a girl, I'm the one that always start the argument. Over tiny tiny things.

For example, I'm a easily "get-jealous" person.

So, whoever that goes near or even talk to my lao gong, I'll get angry at my lao gong although he's not the one starting the conversation.

It's just a simple conversation and I'm there but just don't know why I'll get angry.

Silly me !!! But no worries, now anyone and everyone can talk to my lao gong.

I Promise not to get angry at him !!! hahahaha.. Maybe cause I've grow up.

Everything I look at the past is totally different from how I look at it now.

I'm sure with what we have been through this few years, our feelings to each other is getting stronger day by day.

I'm sure I'm ready for my big day to accept this guy as my other half and to accompany through my life.

This semester is totally a busy semester for me. Because I'll be taking my Financial Mathematics Exam (Exam FM) on the 14th of August 2009. And I'm not fully prepare for it but I'll be fully prepared for this war as I don't want to fail anymore. At the same time, in university, I'm taking french, aerobics and 4 more major subjects which I find it quite thought cause my basic is not that strong. This semester is definitely tough for me and I don't want to be failure anymore.

I'll be hardworking starting from now.

Everything is like so clear now.

Previously I'm living under the sea and I can feel all the pressure that's in the water.

But now I found my way out and I can see the world is so wonderful and I can breathe without all the pressure.

I'm so happy.

So calm ~~~

-NEW SEMESTER-

Ladies and gentlemen, I'm starting my new semester in 8 hours and 10 minutes from now..

Am i nervous? No way man !!! not 1st year also. but final year already. old already. haha

but let me tell u what i did before my new semester starts la.

I come back to 677 just now at about 10 something.

den i become so down n disappointed..

firstly, i come n den i c at the front door.. there's a lot of papers lying down on the floor..

do i pick it up? it's already 10pm at night. do u think I'll pick it up?

secondly, i come inside.. i c a lot of shoes scattered at the floor..

SHIT !!! there's a shoe rack for them.. y can't they just put nicely at the appropriate place..

dun understand why ????

thirdly, go inside room.. there is ants near my wardrobe..

shit !!! why ???

i asked my roommate.. she said cos there's a dragonfly in the waste paper basket.. n she can do experiment on the ants repellent..

huh? y suddenly got a dead dragonfly in there? y she didn't just pack the plastic bag n throw it outside?? y?? i really got blur??

den she told me tat dragonfly died on my bed yesterday n she throw it in the waste paper basket and she said she knew there'll be ants later on..

but y she didn't just pack it up n throw it away????

still dun understand..

so, end up.. i throw it away lo..

wat a tiring night.. i'm just trying to rest and stay happily in this house..

but why there are so many problems??

but i can say that nowadays i'm very hot tempered..

i dunno why.. but i do get angry easily and i get angry at certain people easily..

all i need to do is just control my temper and dun care about so many things..

i'll try to forget about what everyone has done in the past and my new semester will be a new start for me !!!

each n everyone has their own personality and i'll try to accept each n everyone of them !!!

and i need to know the word TOLERATE !!!

i must know that word !!!!

-MY FEELINGS-

Nowadays dunno what happen to me.. maybe i really grow up dy..

after my internship den haven't start new sem yet.. too free at home..

i think about so many things.. especially those past things la..

i think about what have i done last time..

i think about the things i've done issit rite or wrong..

i think about am i too emotional to do smtg..

i think about my own attitude..

i think about a lot of things..

i really dunno in the past..

i'm childish or i'm selfish..

but i think now i got the answers dy..

in the past, i'm a very bad bad girl..

i always think about myself first..

never really think about others feelings..

no matter when..

i've hurt so many ppl by talking..

hopefully they'll forgive me..

but from today onwards..

i never wanna think about the past anymore..

i'll be good to everyone..

and i'm sure i'll do it..

never ever think about myself again..

never be selfish..

never judge a book by it's cover..

n never be emotional again...

sorry to those ppl that i've hurt in the past..

i'll change..

I WILL !!!

SORRY ~~

I'm gonna miss you, ISM Insurance Services Malaysia Berhad

I've completed my internship for 4 months in a place known as ISM Insurance Services Malaysia Berhad in Jalan Sultan Sulaiman.

It's been an enjoyable 4 months.. I started my 4 months intern on 2nd march 2009..

i was alone and the rest of my course mates have found themselves in other insurance company or bank whereas for me.. I've choose to complete my internship in this company.. and until now i never regret to work there.. it's been an memorable 4 months for me..

i really appreciate everything and everyone there..

I've been learning a lot of things there.. from SAS Enterprise Guide to a normal excel..

but I enjoy every second in the company with all the friendly colleagues and the friendly environment.. I really wanna take this opportunity to thank everyone there.. It's been my pleasure getting to know each and everyone of them..

my 2 bosses..

from left : Danny, BICC senior manager , Carl, CEO of ISM

Choo Ing, HR Manager..

my "mom" haha.. shirley

front : liza, mazlen, me and shymala

back : Mr Lim

the pretty ladies.. hahaha

choo ing, shaminee and rachel..

for my farewell.. thanks everyone..

yong, shaminee, me and cheng khang

my BFF , Siti

Me with Voon..

Shirley, me with kak piah...

a gift from ISM.. i like it so much.. thanks !!!

THANK YOU ISM !!!

I'm gonna miss you !!!

A great great day !!!

For so long I've never had a day like today !!!

I can just say that we are damn lucky..

hahaha..

Let me just start my writing with my morning lo..

11am - wake up lo.. try to online.. shit can't !!! stupid streamyx.. hate it !!!!

11.15am - wash my clothes and hang it lo..

11.30am - clean up the living room for 677.. now it's home sweet home that we've always wanted..

2pm - finish cleaning.. shower lo.. den go out for lunch with 677-ians..

2.30pm - go seapark lunch then buy some things lo.. den go back 677

3.30pm - reach 677.. did some "girl" things.. hahaha..

4.30pm - take a nap.. nice nap.. hahaha

5.30pm - dress up and go 1 utama..

it's still so early.. we have a lot of plans for the nite..

6.00pm - reach 1 utama.. found us a nice parking..  *damn lucky !!! (1st time)

6.15pm - GSC-buy us 3 tickets for I Love You, Man..

6.30pm - eat in zanmai sushi.. long queue la.. but den wait for a while our turn dy..

The conversation goes like tis..

bla bla bla..

SY : Eh, look at the sign board, got happy hour le..

OW : Happy hour?

J : oh, that day u go for midvalley de oso got rite?

SY : ya lo.. in gardens de.. it's from 7am-8am where they got a theme for the day..

like tat day is maki lo.. so u take those maki from the belt den on selected plates.. after they scan with UV light, if got sign den u can get rm20 voucher lo..

J : wah.. good good.. hopefully we get la

Waitress : How many person?

SY : 3..

J : Hello.. (talking on the phone).. hahaha

OW & SY: bla bla bla.. (I was on the phone.. how i know what they talk.. hahaha)

So,the waitress take us to a nice place it's just beside the conveyor belt lo.. *damn lucky !!! (2nd time)

It's 6.45pm haven't 7pm lo.. so we took those nigiri sushi and ordered some hand roll first lo..

our 3 temaki-s

DENG !!! DENG !!! DENG!!! It's 7pm yeah ~~!!!!

SY : Is the happy hour started already?

Waiter : No yet.. u have to wait for the opening..

SY : oh.. ok thanks..

after a while.. it started...

so,the theme for today is maki again.. so take any maki on the belt and when they scan there's a sign underneath ur plate den "TA DAH !!!!! " u got urself a RM20 voucher..

but the waitress give us a hint.. it's either the black plate (rm4.80) or the red plate (rm6)..

me with the belt..

so, i took the first one.. red plate.. 

shee ying (my roommate) took the second plate, black plate..

and oil woon (my housemate) took the third plate, red plate..

1 person 1 ma.. fair fair.. c who got the luck.. hahaha..

so, the winner is oil woon.. she got herself a rm20 voucher.. yeah !!! *damn lucky !!! (3rd time)

oil with her lucky belt.. hahaha

the sign of rm20 voucher

yeah !!!! you are the winner !!!

dun kan cheong first la.. walao.. we oso didn't kalah la..

cos zanmai sushi organise a game to play lo.. the title of the game is "辣辣zanmai寿司边个吃,我唔吃，你要吃 !!! "

the happy boy come out to be the host of the game la..

so,1st round, shee ying go play.. yeah...

the happy boy !!!

the game goes like tis.. there's 3 person playing tis game including the happy boy..

so, it's scissors, paper, stone to determine who win lo..

so,the winning person will get to choose the 3 sushis for the 2 opponents and herself lo..

for ur information it's inari sushi (shee ying's favourite.. shouldn't have ordered just now.. haha)

so,the person that took the sushi without the wasabi will get rm20 voucher..

shee ying win the game and won herself a rm20 voucher.. *damn lucky !!! (4th time)

down lo.. left me lo.. i pulak have to pay the meal myself.. down lo..

hahahaha..

during the game..

rm20 voucher.. yeah !!!

mana tau, after about 15 minutes, the happy boy came back and ask.. who wanna play the game again? guess wat? i went out..

and played the same game lo.. but i lose the scissors, paper, stone lo..

char ma.. so the winner choose the sushi for me lo..

mana tau.. the sushi she choose for me... don't have the taste of wasabi oso.. yeah !!!

so i get myself a rm20 voucher again lo... *damn lucky !!! (5th time)

me during the game..

me with the rm20 voucher..

so,we can eat rm60 of sushi free man !!!

but the funny part is..

SY : Let's count how much we ate 1st la..

(Count count count)

SY : RM20 ++

OW & J : ya lo.. so can use 1 voucher nia lo..

with the menu

with the menu..

with the menu

so happy den we ordered few more items den ask for bills lo..

go till the counter with a hand holding rm20 and 1 voucher.. cos only rm20 + ma..

we with our price.. yeah !!!

Cashier : RM72.90

J : Huh? wah.. how come?

SY : ya lo.. y so much?

OW : ya lo.. y?

J : Nvm pay 1st.. 

(SY & OW taking out the other 2 vouchers)

so at last pay rm12.90 lo.. erm.. rm4.30 per person and we checked the bill..

shit !!! memang we eat de.. no wrong at all.. we ordered a lot le !!! hahahahaha

nvm nvm.. it's already 8pm and our movie is at 8.40pm..

we only have 40minutes to shop and it's pdi members day... 20% le..

so, cheong ah !!!!!

reach there OW went to look for shoes.. i look around for bags.. but down all the bags so expensive.. so end up walking lo.. walk till accesories there.. found myself a striking purple watch.. nice only rm16.80.. 

den jalan summore.. wah.. got a baju 70% discount only rm27.60.. 

so,buy this 2 things lo.. OW got herself a shoe lo.. nice nice!!

but malangnya, SY didn't buy herself anything.. but she aimed dy la.. hahaha.. waiting for the next sales .. yeah !!!!

so,it's already 8.40pm.. cheong to cinema..

ngam ngam ho.. the show just started.. yeah !!! nice timing !!!

a nice nice movie.. very funny.. must watch !!!

finish movie, came back 677 and try to online..

yeah can wor !!! *damn lucky (6th time)

so,time to update my blog lo.. yeah !!!!

Osaka Japanese Restaurant

I went for Japanese treat last saturday with my lao gong..

Actually went to the restaurant before de.. but den my friends all blacklisted it already

this is due to the bad service on the 1st of may (labour day) night..

maybe the restaurant is too pack.. therefore, the restaurant became topsy turvy..

the waiters and waitress also "pek-cek" even we as the customers also "pek-cek"..

so,we waited for menu for about 15 minutes.. only menu cos the waitress said "menu not enough"

hahaha.. so silly.. 

den wait for about 45 minutes to 1 hour for the food lo..

so,kao tim everything about 2 hours like tat kua.. i also forgot dy la.. roughly only..

therefore, we band the place dy lo.. hahahaha

but den,i feel that the place's food is nice.. i never tasted any japanese food that nice.. even sakae oso kalah dy..

seriously.. if u guys have the chance.. must go try.. no regret..

so,i planned to give the restaurant a 2nd chance..

and i did, last saturday i went for dinner with my lao gong..

we reach there at about 6.15pm (open at 6pm) cos scare the same old thing happen again.. cos it's wesak day on saturday.. scare will be pack..

mana tau.. go till there.. got 2-3 tables la.. den we get a nice place..

the service is damn good.. hahaha..

den we ordered all the sushi... 

and let me tell u.. my lao gong is not fond of sushi.. but he can order a lot there and start eating happily.. not like when we go sakae.. he got nothing much to order.. hahahaa

so,let me show u some photos of the food..

osaka japanese restaurant

located in BBK Klang, Near to Jusco Klang

Beside HSBC Bank..

The set of the day.. cost us RM19.90 with miso soup and chawanmushi..

the things we ordered..

close up of the soft shell crab hand roll

the whole picture.. hahaha

the sushi we ordered separately..

nice huh? nice sushi..

if u all got chance must go and try lo.. if dunno where issit den pls call or sms me lo..

is a must try place.. i give 5 stars.. =)

What's the point?

What's the point for paying RM400 (i still owe my sister this amount) and study damn hard day and night , without having enough sleep when the date is approaching and pek cek-ing most of the time moreover make myself no mood everyday resulting in arguement with my loved ones.

Eating maggi mee for 2 meals a day and finish 5 packets in 4 days?

What's the point? For my future? As an actuary? Is it really my dream?

I'm lost now. 

After been through everything, and what I got? -We are regret to inform you that your test results shows that you were not successful in achieving the passing score established by the SOA for Exam FM- Thank you very much. Thanks for all the trouble.

Thanks for all the things I've been through this few months.

Not forgetting the tired internship from 8.30am - 5.30pm and come back still need to face you (FM Manual) but this is how you repay me? !@!#$#%$#%^%$^%$&@$#%

I'm really lost now. Lost in the sense that should I really continue with this route? or should I find the route that I really like? such as designing, cooking, teaching? 

but I'm already half way through and had already waste RM1600 (RM400 - Exam P fail  + RM400 -Exam FM fail  + RM400 - Exam FM again fail again  + RM300 for passport that bring me to nowhere yet + RM100(lebih kurang) for all the travelling expenses to the exam for 3 times)

I really don't get the point yet? Still so lost.

However, from all the frustration I've been through, 

Thanks to my parents, they support me really much. 

Thanks to my lao gong. Although he's busy this few weeks but he spend a lot of time to text me whenever I'm down and accompanying me when I really need him. Thanks.

Thanks to my friends (all of them)

I can see who's my true friend now. Thanks for supporting me and asking me to study all the time (u know who you are). 

And lastly thanks to myself for having the courage to go through all this. haha. Without going through all this, I really don't know that I'm that dicipline. I can OFF my laptop for about 2 weeks when I'm peejay. Unbelievable !!! But believe me, it's true.

What's done is done. Next step is to enjoy myself to the fullest without FM Manual anymore.

Yeah !!!! 

tired of my life

i'm actually having my exam fm on the 7th may 2009..

i can honestly tell everyone that i'm not ready..

and i might give up but because of rm400.. i still need to struggle..

until now.. 26th april 2009..

i still have 11 chapters to go.. and in total there are 19 chapters..

do u think i will pass? i dun think so..

if i have 24 hours to study for a day.. only study..

but i dun have.. i have to go to work..

sometimes.. during working hours.. if the boss has nothing for u to do..

den u can study lo.. but sometimes he's free den sien dy lo..

later after work.. come back home.. go makan den back home about 8plus dy..

study for a while (if got mood) no mood? den habis loh..

waste few hours lo.. mostly i dun have mood de.. although my laptop will be off during weekdays

but it'll still be the same.. no mood means no mood..

about 11 plus? wanna sleep dy lo.. haih ~~~

1 day finish.. so day and day pass.. what have i done for today?

it's the same.. no study only wasting time..

but it's so damn tired.. how can i manage all this problems?

can someone help me? i really no mood to study anymore..

really wanna give up.. please anyone help me !!!!

arrrrggggghhhhh !!!!!!

long month has just passed

long month? it's only a month..

but last month really damn lots of things happen

my internship lo.. den getting really nervous and i can feel the pressure cos my exam FM is just around the corner.. 

den my lao gong's grandma is back.. so every weekend we will go to accompany her..

but she just went back to New Zealand today..

i dun understand myself..

cos when she's here.. i seems to feel that she dun like me and that my lao gong spend most of his time with her.. and treat her even more better than treat me..

she'll said i'm fat.. my leg is not nice.. and etc..

den make me really no mood to go see her.. 

but i do respect her as my own grandma.. and still go accompany her every weekends when she's around.. although i'm always down after i go..

but i can say i'm quite happy oso la.. although sometimes end up arguing with my lao gong..

just a snap.. it's already a month.. 

and she's already 78 years old.. how many times a person can have their 78?

so,i just can do my very best to treat her really well and hope can repay all her hardwork that she've done for my lao gong when he's young..

now that she's on the MAS airplane.. far away from here dy..

i started to miss her.. which i feel weird..

but i can see she's a good grandma for sure.. 

just have to say sorry to whatever i've done wrong all this while and my bad attitude..

hope she and my lao gong can forgive me for what i've done last month..

SORRY ~~~

now really can feel the pressure from my exam dy..

start to get nervous dy.. cos still got a lot of chapters and i dun hav much time left..

i oso how tis time.. really feel like crying sometimes.. 

but i can't be that weak.. i must stand up !!!

i can't give up.. i must try my best..

gambate jenna ong !!!!

-bad temper-

this few weeks i'm really bad temper..

i dunno what actually happen to me..

but i think it's cos of my lao gong has not much time for me like always..

he need to spend time with his grandma cos she' back from NZ..

den he need to spend time studying for all his midterm and assignments..

so, he only has 24 hours a day.. den he used up most of his weekends in his grandma's place

and weekdays for studies.. 

i do understand that he's busy.. i shouldn't have disturb him and throw my temper right at his face

he's really suffering i can c.. but girls will always be girls..

i can't control how i feel.. i can't control my tears..

everything just come and go.. i can't control it..

i'm sorry if i treat anyone bad tis few weeks..

please forgive me.. 

i'll try to let go everything.. and forget about everything..

and work happily and study happily..